[life, interrupted]

I believe in a solution: a completely ambiguous one to everything, but really nothing in particular. The details are not the important part. I guess if I were concerned in actually finding the solution, I would probably like some details. However, it is not the how that I believe in. It is the concept that appeals to me.

Some people, mostly my mom, call me cynical. I guess that could be an accurate adjective to describe me, but I like to think there is more depth. I do not only focus on negative things, but I think it is foolish and selfish to ignore them. I am affected by things I see, like all those commercials with the crying dogs and the Sarah McLachlan music playing in the background or the One campaign where the celebrities snap every three seconds to signify a child's death. It doesn't take much to be aware of the world around us, and surrounding ourselves in only the happiness of our lives makes it much more impossible for others to rise out of the disparity of their own. So yes, I am cynical and pessimistic about our current state of affairs: war, racism, equality of sex, and my general thought that society supports the wrong choices.

In my cynicism, though I have found that I live with an optimistic outlook. I believe that there is something that will make all of this better. There is a cure for cancer. There is an everlasting peace. There are equal rights for all. Natural habitats will grow back to their original glory. It is not a matter of what I want to believe. It is a matter of what I have to believe. I need to believe there is a solution for all this madness that we either are too ignorant or stubborn to fix. It is a necessity to believe that all hope is not lost. I need to believe that people just choose bad decisions because of our society's terrible influence, and not because people are inherently, and permanently, stupid. There is always a hope for the future because there has to be. It gives me something to work for and forces me to not sink into depression.

So, I believe in a solution, partially out of fear and partially out of hope. I don't know what this solution is and I doubt I ever will. Maybe it is technology, nature, God, atheism, consumerism, communism, or pastafarianism. I just know that somewhere, in some time, it exists, and for now, that's all I need to believe in: I believe in a tomorrow that is better than today.